Life and It's No-Guarantee Policy

It’s almost that time.  The time to really start a new chapter in my life.  

Granted I have already moved out of my parent’s house, got a second job and pay all my own bills.  But starting school…. Now that’s what’s really going to get me to my life goals.  

Yet, I have a sunken feeling of uncertainty.  Am I ready for this next chapter?  What if I fail and am then just back where I started…working dead end jobs for minimum wage.  What if I get there and realize my love for social work has diminished and with it so have my goals?  What if I just never get anywhere?  

Trying to balance my finances at the moment, I realize that no matter how many hours I work a week, I am never going to be able to do everything I want.  How am I supposed to pay for rent, a new car and a trip to Boston all within the next few months?  My checks never seem to resemble the amount of work I feel I put in.  

How can I go weeks without a day off yet still be barely scrapping by?  

How am I ever supposed to be able to sit down and relax when I know I could and should be working to save up for the expensive schooling I am about to put myself through?

So many thoughts race through my head without a single thing to comfort me.  Maybe I will get through graduate school without too much stress.  Maybe I will be able to find a cheap car.  Maybe I will be able to find a great job that I love.  But there are too many maybes in the world.  I want a guarantee.  And I don’t seem to have any of those right now.  

Woops. Disappeared for awhile there.

Well hey there fellow bloggers,
I quite apologize for my long absence from this blog.  I moved out of my parent's house (FINALLY) and into my very own apartment....and by my very own I mean an apartment where I live with 2 other people, 2 dogs and hopefully coming soon, A BIRD!

Moral of the story, a month after this move we still haven't set up the internet.  In some ways this is awesome.  It's great to not "waste" as much time on the internet looking at things that I don't necessarily give a damn about.  Yet in other ways, I have seriously, seriously neglected this blog.

Perhaps with this new move and starting grad school soon I will have more to ramble about....
Or should I say more things with a purpose.

Other than the move, life is about the same.  I work 2 minimum wage jobs just about every day of the week. Drink and hang out with friends in the littlest free time I have.  And still live a decently awesome life.

But for now I must say Adieu.  There's a bottle of Reisling with my name on it and I can't neglect my wine :)